R.I.P ♥

As anyone who has been close to someone that has committed suicide knows, there is no other pain like that felt after the incident.  ~ Peter Greene

A person I've went to school with for almost 11 years, took his life today. At first I didn't really believe, he couldn't be gone right. The only thing that processed through my mind was the teachers words of "It's truly a tragedy..." and the cries and screams from the students. I didn't know what to think. I knew that no one had seen him since yesterday around eight, but ...... 


He's not really in my class, but he's in the other first year class. I didn't really know him, I've never even truly talked to him, but it still hurts to think about it.


It started in the morning, I heard some small talk about him being missing, but I didn't really think about it. Then, around ten, his aunt came and asked one of the guy's best friends if she had any idea of where he could be. I think it was around one or two hours later they contacted the police and started a full-out search for him. The fathers of one of my classmates where one of those who searched for him, so we got a bit of information from him. But even so he told us at the end that we would get information at two o'clock. 


Somewhere around one o'clock we were told to gather in the auditorium. We waited to everyone was there and then the principal told us. The only thing I heard was "It's truly a tragedy...." after that all I remembered was crying and screams.
I felt angry at first. How could he do this to the people who cared about him? The people who cried for him right now? I've always thought that suicidal-people were selfish. People who only thought about themselves and didn't care about others. But I don't know what to think about it anymore. He wasn't the person you would expect to do something like this. 
We think it was because of stress. He always wanted to be best. It wasn't only he that expected that from himself, we also expected it from him. I guess we weren't really aware about it. He always got good grades, had good friends and was great at sports, he seemed to have a good life. After we got the news I've heard he had problem at home since his parents divorce. I can't help thinking that he didn't deserve this. I've never believed that you couldn't see signs if anyone have problems. If you had met him you would never have guessed that he didn't feel good about his life.

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When I came home I couldn't take it anymore and cried. I cried for around a hour. It's truly sad that a human can feel so bad that he just wants to end his life. 

That's all from me today.


- Rasmine

Late again and math-problems

Yeah, I'll try to update at least once every second day. We saw that. Unfortunately the day after I wrote that, I got ill, and this week has been so stressed because of my math-homework and a science-test.
I don't know how, but somehow I ended up two weeks behind the schedule for our math-class. And our math-class are one week behind the "official" schedule. Did this even make any sense?


Moving on. :)
I've been a fan of Becca Fitzpatrick's book "Hush, hush" since I read it last summer, and it's really a shame that I haven't been able to read book two yet. Well, I saw this trailer earlier today, and even though I have a lot of books I were supposed to read before I were allowed to order Crescendo, I think I'm going to try and get my mom to allow me to order it sometime next week. I really want it!

Come on, you can't say that the trailer isn't awesome! :D


- Rasmine

Finally friday...

"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival. "

- C.S. Lewis

Finally friday, it has been a tough week for me. I'm not a person who handles stress very well, so to have four presentations and one test was kinda exhausting. Ok, it wasn't really that bad, but for a person who hates to stand in front of people and talk, four presentations are a lot. And two of those was not on my native language. 

But the days move on and tomorrow is a new day. :)

Me and my friends were joking with two girl in our class today. One of them asked us if we were going on the prom tonight and we said that we couldn't because we had other plans. When they asked us what our plans were we told them that we were going ice-bathing. The funniest part was probably the look they got on their face. They totally believed us.

Yeah, like we're that kinda people who goes out bathing when it's -6 degrees outside. Not going to happen. 

But we did go outside and bath, only in a jacuzzi. +39 degrees! :D

Two things at the end. I've decided that I'll try to blog once each day or every other day, I don't really think that's going to happen, but okay.

Second, about the quote at the beginning.... I just felt for it :)

-Rasmine

Rather late than never

Since this is my first blog you probably don't know this, but there are a lot of things that annoys me and a few things that makes me happy. Some of the things that makes me happy is reading, music, taking pictures and be with the people I like. I know it's a long time since christmas, but I just felt for sharing the books I got:

- Sookie Stackhouse 1-10 ~ Charlaine Harris on english, while I also got the first book on my mother-tongue
- Gone - Lies ~ Michael Grant
- The host - Stephenie Meyer
- Chasing midnight ~ Susan Krinard

I can't wait to start reading.

- Rasmine